wishbzne:

“I love you. I love you, but I’m turning to my verses and my heart is closing like a fist.”

— Frank O’Hara, from Mayakovsky

me at the beginning of 2018: this is going to be my year for sure. positive vibes and self love only :) 

me the rest of 2018: wow i’m consumed by self-loathing this year is a dumpster fire pls let it end 

me at the beginning of 2019: this is going to be my year for sure. positive vibes and self love only :) 

trying to cure existential depression with meaningless material possessions and ultimately being disappointed when they fail to bring you any real happiness :) :) :)